You know when you are trying to get ahead and things just seem to be falling apart all around you? Around the start of the holidays I was really into a slump. Everything just seemed to be working against me. Work was creating a ton of resistance. I am not really fond of my current JOB. It is helping to pay the bills but the thought of going to work somedays is almost depressing. 
Trading money for hours of my time seems to be a horrible waste of something that is so valuable. Especially when it isn’t something I want to do.
So after feeling sorry for myself for about ten days over Christmas and New Years I started to reflect on my current situation.
Back in June I was in San Diego for a internet marketing conference. I went there looking for techniques that I could use to grow my business doing what I want. Part way through the conference after listening to several of the speakers it hit me, I was keenly aware that most of the information the presenters were covering was stuff that I already knew. I went away from that conference with a complete change of attitude. I had all the tools I needed.
So, fast forward to the first week in Jan 2012, I was still not getting to where I wanted and in combination with the over commercialized holiday I had enough. I reflected back onto what I had realized after coming back from San Diego.
I have all the knowledge I need to be a raging success at what I do online. It is my mindset that is killing all of my efforts. I have got to the point where I was unsure what to do because I have had so many things not work out that whenever I had an idea I would immediately sabotage it with all the things that wouldn’t work.
I needed a mindset transplant. I needed to sluff off all the negative thoughts that are rampant in my head. Out came a book that I have owned for several years and have never fully read. “Think and Grow Rich”.
This is where the transformation started. I basically confirmed that I am my own worst enemy and immedietaly started to make changes in my attitude to quit with the negetive thoughts that seem to dominate most of my day. Now I am aware of them and quickly discount them and replace them with what I have chosen for my self and family.
I choose love, abundance and wealth and my reality. I have a firm picture in my head of what my perfect day is and now I get a warm fuzzy feeling whenever I think about it.
For about six months now I have had a little voice in the back of my head for an app. This idea has breached the confines of my skull and has taken its physical form. It has gone from a passing thought to a concrete plan complete with flowchart and detailed specs almost ready to be posted for bids. Thus completing the final step of the creation process.
Right now I have only two small hic ups to overcome. The first is a small technical issue, I am firmly (but not happily) bound in a windows environment and a Mac is required to develop iPhone apps. Second is the financing of my wonderful new idea which I am completely sure will resolve itself. As I am on a very tight monthly budget both would have been reasons to give up. However, I have such complete faith that this idea will provide me with a lifestyle that fits my dreams that these small obstacles are not going to get in the way.
So. I guess the point of this post is to bring what I have been feeling inside, outside. To put the declaration of what I want from life out there. I am going all in with this app because it has been sitting in the back of my mind for a long time. Popping up to see if I am ready to make it a reality.
If you are in a position like this I would love to know how you bring yourself out of the doldrums. Leave me a comment.